JUN_14_2026 - Taste of Summer

The heat has finally started kicking in, giving a taste of the summer feel here in the northwest.
I am not a heat person, but eventually hotter temperatures will become the new norm, so gotta adapt somehow.

On the flip of it all:

I’ve ordered new hardware for my home setup and one piece closer to a live gig I can adapt to anything. I’ll update this in the equipment section once it arrives and is set up properly.

I was planning on returning to college this fall for another school year, but scholarships were denied this round, despite two terms last year with a 4.0 GPA. I am not deterred from my plan to finish it sometime, but now is probably not it.

With that in mind, I will be working on a lot of backlog of music throughout what would have been the school year. a lot of music from 3 different eras. This is going to most likely be multiple extended plays or a full length album or two. No matter which way it goes, there will be a lot of music coming.

One of the other things I’ve been sitting on for awhile is a rather large story and writing project that came to me in 2021. While there’s a massive amount of details to fill in based on what exists in code right now, I have been contemplating the possibility of even just turning the whole entire thing into a music release of sort. the problem with thinking about that is with 280 chapters in coded format, how long would the music best represent each chapter, and what genres would best suit parts, or what styles of production would float and convey the artistic intent.

the bright side is the beginning and the end are very clear. there are parts in the middle that are guaranteed. but there’s still so much to appropriately fill in. remembering your dreams is a fun task when you’re creating something I guess.

One last thing before posting - I’m also preparing to make new YouTube content at some point here. Because I’ve been figuring myself out more and figuring out my hardware and everything, I might as well share that part of the journey and sort of explain how the journey landed me where I am at right now. It could help other musicians maybe, or at least offer a perspective. All while maybe getting visibility on some things that I think developers could benefit from hearing out. Nothing nefarious or ill-intended.

See you in the next update in probably 10-14 days.

JUN_02_2026 - The Way Forward

when original plans do not go your way, always have a contingency in your back pocket that is just as a doable as anything else you could conjure up.

this has been a sort of motto of mine since the 2000’s. while it doesn’t always work, it has been landing more and more as time moves on, because when you get older, you start to notice things and fine tune them equally.

my original plan of this year was to resume college, but at the moment, scholarships are off the table. this means my fall and winter seasons more or less open up to continuing my work that i’ve been dying to do for the past 5 years or so, give or take.

all the while, i am currently working with a client. when they are ready to announce things, you’ll know more here as well. until then, we are making progress bit by bit.

my plan (with a goal in mind) is once i handle some gear replacement here, i begin working on some of this music that i’ve been sitting on since 1998 in MIDI format, all the way up to 24-bit WAV files made this past year alone. At this point, I think it’s 16 hours of backlog, unfinished, unreleased, etc.

the most important thing to me at this point however is i do not care if i am viewed as “a perfect vocalist” or “a shitty vocalist” or even “a solid musician” or “a third rate wannabe” or anything. in 2026, opinions shouldn’t matter anymore. what matters is what you hear and what you see.

and the way forward for me started becoming more clear since november 2025. what happened was upsetting and disappointing, but i have never felt so free after putting the pieces together.

so with that, let me offer you something, if you stumble upon this entry:

study your contemporaries. study the veterans. the people who paved the road for you, and those who are actively sharing traffic with you in whatever capacity. study their tricks. study their chops. study everything you can. knowledge is power.

because of my thirst for knowledge, i have begun to unlock things that i’ve dreamed about since 2000. and i’m not stopping anytime soon. even if this tinnitus gets worse or better (thank you, paris theater portland and rivers of nihil!)

or as i would more than likely would have said in the late 2000’s while still torso deep in death metal: “get cranially fucked”

May_20_2026 - New Initiative

Home is officially found.
Updates to back end through June or July 2026.
Return to form.
Additional Page Work In Progress.
World Building, World Burning.

Permutation.
Automation.
Negotiation.