JUN_02_2026 - The Way Forward

when original plans do not go your way, always have a contingency in your back pocket that is just as a doable as anything else you could conjure up.

this has been a sort of motto of mine since the 2000’s. while it doesn’t always work, it has been landing more and more as time moves on, because when you get older, you start to notice things and fine tune them equally.

my original plan of this year was to resume college, but at the moment, scholarships are off the table. this means my fall and winter seasons more or less open up to continuing my work that i’ve been dying to do for the past 5 years or so, give or take.

all the while, i am currently working with a client. when they are ready to announce things, you’ll know more here as well. until then, we are making progress bit by bit.

my plan (with a goal in mind) is once i handle some gear replacement here, i begin working on some of this music that i’ve been sitting on since 1998 in MIDI format, all the way up to 24-bit WAV files made this past year alone. At this point, I think it’s 16 hours of backlog, unfinished, unreleased, etc.

the most important thing to me at this point however is i do not care if i am viewed as “a perfect vocalist” or “a shitty vocalist” or even “a solid musician” or “a third rate wannabe” or anything. in 2026, opinions shouldn’t matter anymore. what matters is what you hear and what you see.

and the way forward for me started becoming more clear since november 2025. what happened was upsetting and disappointing, but i have never felt so free after putting the pieces together.

so with that, let me offer you something, if you stumble upon this entry:

study your contemporaries. study the veterans. the people who paved the road for you, and those who are actively sharing traffic with you in whatever capacity. study their tricks. study their chops. study everything you can. knowledge is power.

because of my thirst for knowledge, i have begun to unlock things that i’ve dreamed about since 2000. and i’m not stopping anytime soon. even if this tinnitus gets worse or better (thank you, paris theater portland and rivers of nihil!)

or as i would more than likely would have said in the late 2000’s while still torso deep in death metal: “get cranially fucked”

May_20_2026 - New Initiative

Home is officially found.
Updates to back end through June or July 2026.
Return to form.
Additional Page Work In Progress.
World Building, World Burning.

Permutation.
Automation.
Negotiation.